Letting Go

 I open my mouth to speak, no one's there, I just want to make sure I have words, but they don't make it out of my throat.

I feel the burning tears drop to my cheek, and I'm not sure how to make them stop. 

Your words tore into my heart and took my breath away. I knew it was more than I could let into my head. More than I could understand at that moment.

An instinct to defend myself was heavy but I couldn't speak. I couldn't write. The words were not there.

I tried to at least speak to you of the most painful words, but it was like someone else was writing for me. I didn't think you would hear the words, anyway.

I've been in this place before. The storm before the end of a relationship. Knowing someone has moved past you, but doesn't know how to say the words, so they avoid you, in the hope you will disappear.

I wish I had seen it sooner. I would have let go, and walked away with my heart in tact. Now, I walk away in pain knowing I am not in your heart, or in your mind at all.

I know now that I am no more than a burden to your heart. You ignore me in the hopes I will just fade away, and become a distant memory sooner than later.

I will let go. I am letting go. I have let go.