The Story in Music

 

Chasing the Dream

 All our lives we chase dreams.

Dreams of new roller skates, video games, and a new bicycle.

A few years later, our dreams include people. They are about love. Loving and being loved. 

When we're young, it never is possible that our dreams won't be realized. We know they will be, we just aren't sure when. 

Our dreams are our hope for a future. 

Dreams keep fear at bay. Dreams give us courage. 

Courage to keep going forward even when we know there are those that would crush our spirits, and break our wings.

Dreams are freedom. Freedom to love, freedom to be who we are.

Dreams are songs that remind of us of a lover from long ago, a beach warm and untouched by the day, and the stars bright and clear in the misty moonlight.

Dreams remind us that we are young and loved. 

Dreams remind us that no matter the age, the desire for human touch is warm and safe.

Oh to be sure, I'll never stop chasing a dream.

Loving without trusting

How do you say you love someone but you don't trust? I say why don't you trust the person you say you love? What's that? You say you don't trust anyone. 

When that happened to me, I felt the worst kind of betrayal. And it came from the one person I would have given my life for, or at the very least would have trusted with my life. 

Those are the lessons that come from pain.

 I'm faithful to my friends and my lovers of the past. I am trustworthy. I am worthy of your love and your trust. I give all of my heart to those I love, and if you're important in my life, you can be pretty sure I love you. I find it very dark when someone treats me as though they have a reason not to trust me. And then I wonder if the darkness comes from them and not me?

 People are quick to ask how I can say I love them. I think because I don't always see love in the familial sense or in the sexual sense. I can say I don't see love at all. I feel love, and my heart learns to love people by their honesty, their deeds and the words they choose to use with others. I feel love in how genuine they are, and how often I am blessed to see the child within and the happiness and light that radiates into my world. Those are not easy to fake. That's how I trust.

Trust comes with the love. It's a by-product of a genuine heart and a willingness to love someone for the person they are, and not the person you want to see them as. If I've lost my trust in someone, I will lose my love too. For me, one cannot live without the other. 

Do I sometimes love or trust the wrong people? Of course. But what is the alternative? To live in the darkness of mistrust or hate? That's not for me. I need people in my life and I look hard for those I can trust and love. Without judgment. It's my life and I choose love over hate all day long. ~TM